Going up

These past few weeks have sent me into a slightly hypo manic state.  I was taking a small dose of Zoloft and with my body being so sensitive to small changes of medicine.  Now, I'm taking 200 mg of Seroquel to help counter the hypo mania.    Many things are contributing to this episode.  First, the end of the school year is near.  It is a busy time already, I've added my own goal directed activity of completing curriculum maps for my subject area.  Additionally I'm cleaning the house because my mom is coming to visit, which always throws a wrench into my moods.  

Been a while

Haven't posted in forever! Slowly learning to live with bipolar, but its still hard. I'm constantly wondering if I'm heading into a manic or depressive episode. I've only had 1 depressive episode this year. Not sure when the other shoe is going to drop and I'll have to deal with a manic period. When it happens I will deal with it like I always do. But this time if I'm taking Zyprexa, I'll have to figure out public transportation. I am too sleepy to drive with that medication. I actually got into an accident because I fell asleep at the wheel. I've got to be responsible too.
Last year about this time I was in an accident that changed my life. A man ran a red light and I smashed into him head-on. I honked my horn for him to see me, but he didn't. My right wrist was broken immediately. I went to the hospital and it was confirmed a colles fracture. I went to an orthopedic surgeon and scheduled the surgery for the following week. I had a titanium plate screwed into my bones I was in a cast for a week and then into a plastic splint. Life was difficult last summer as I was rehabilitating my arm, looking for a job, and having a summer vacation. It wasn't much of one.
All back to normal except for a few pain spots on my wrist. I was in close contact with my pdoc during that time.
Medications that I am taking now: 1200 mg lithium, 50 mg lamictal, and 275mg levothyroxin (synthroid)

Guess that's all for now!
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Update

Hi!
I've been away mostly because I didn't have internet access. Now that I have internet, I'll be able to post more often. Or not... it depends on how I feel. Since I last posted, the doctor and I were working on getting me more stabilized so that I wouldn't be so manic. The mania did not subside until I was at 1500 mg of Lithium and 2000 mg of Depakote. Once we reached that point for a while, the decision was made to begin lowering the Lithium. We wanted to move as slowly as possible with the medication. We got down to 900 mg of Lithium and I started to become manic again. So the medication was increased again. Now we are at 1200 mg Lithium and 2500 mg Depakote. Enough of that, I went to Europe for 11 days. I had such a great time! I went on my own and even though it was hard to focus on preparing for the trip beforehand, going and enjoying myself was no problem!

Current:
Just increased: Lithium: 1350mg
Depakote: 2500mg
Lamictal: 100mg
Synthroid: 175 mmg

Vegas, Baby!

I go to Vegas to visit my family, not gamble. Although this time I did gamble. I made the decision to stay at the Stratosphere and not with family. I also got a rental car (Kia Soul, thank you). Best decision, EVER! I didn't feel pressured to spend time with family, I did my own thing and did some neat photography, visited family, family visited me, and I had time with my nephew, and got a haircut.

My family can be intense. My sister and I are already planning how we're going to do Vegas for the holidays. Even though they are intense, I love them very much. I would love to do this again. The money is so worth the frustration.

Nothing really new on the medication front. Nothing new on the job front. I have alot of phone calls to make tomorrow. And after that's done, I can start working on how I'm going to answer questions that I should have been able to answer, but wasn't able to, like "What are some comprehension strategies for readers who struggle?" Deer in headlights look... I'm a reading specialist, I should know this... Deer in headlights look... smile... On to the next question...crap.
So I'm going to write out some key points and bring them with me to the interview, kinda like cheat sheets, but I think it's fine, given the situation... we'll call them ADA accomodations.

Unexpected Quickie Trip

After the talking to we got in Board Chambers about what my position is and isn't, I decided to go out to Vegas. We're supposed to make phone calls, which I can do from Vegas, and positions for me are few and far between. I've figured out how much I really am qualified to teach, and it's not much, I think, unfortunately. I'll call down to Springfield for help some time in the next few weeks, but not until Tuesday!!! I'm out to Vegas. I'm actually going to be a "tourist" even though my family lives there! First on the agenda, Mom's house!

I'll be gone from the 8th until the 13th.

I was worried that this was a bit of a manic episode, but I can tell it's not. Everything I've been doing has been in preparation for the trip. I haven't bought anything, I haven't gotten strange ideas in my head, I haven't had any impulse buys, I haven't been up all night, and I've been eerily calm in my head. The only thing that I'm thinking of is what needs to be planned for the trip. Again, advance planning. I'm bringing a book to try and read. It's the next in the series of Rick Riordian. This was an impulse buy back in the day.

Here's to a great mini vacation!

Meds:
.5 Seroquel
1500mgLithium
2000mg Depakote
100mg Lamictal
100mg Levothyroxine

Vacation

I haven't been posting mostly because I don't want to deal with the hassle of my internet provider. But, now at the library, I can update a few things. I am going on vacation! I'm going to Las Vegas to visit my family and I'm hoping that it will keep me going until December.

We were told what our rights and responsibilities are yesterday for my job. I'm in the reappointed job pool. We get to have 30 days excused paid with no work responsibilities other than looking for a job. My first day on Monday I am going to make some phone contacts that I had started over the summer.

Not too much different in the medication department. Really trying to watch in case a manic episode should appear when Seroquel is completely gone. I'm down to 150mg.

My obliviousness is even more obvious now. I ask really dumb questions. I mean questions that can be found on a sign, menu, or building. Geez! That is so frustrating, like yesterday, I asked what is your phone number. One person said well you have both of mine on the letter you got, the other person said oh my phone numbers are... Whatever... I've gotten used to people pointing out the obvious.

Medications: 150 mg Seroquel
1500 mg Lithium
2000mg Depakote
100mg Lamictal
100mg Levothyroxine for hypothyroidism
10mg Ambien for sleep

What a doozy!

I usually spend time at home typing these, but my internet is so slow that I'm using the public library. There is a new one in my neighborhood. I love it! Anyway, back to business. I will be on my way to Niagara Falls tomorrow. I planned this trip a few weeks ago and it was my first attempt at planning something for the future, since everything happened. I think I did a decent job. I have 1 activity planned and the hotel is reserved for the cheaper price and since it doesn't matter to me when I go, I got the cheaper price hotel rooms. I'm going to be on the Canadian side which will be an experience for me, but there's always time for new experiences. I have my passport packed and ready to go! That's the only thing I have ready to go.

I intended to get up and start packing and finish by afternoon. Instead, I took 2 Ambien because I couldn't sleep last night and slept until 12:30. Then, I went to drop off Drama at boarding, print my vouchers for the Behind the Falls Journey, and then pack everything like I wanted. I still have most of the day available and it's not raining now, which even better for packing (in the car).

While most of my symptoms have disappeared, and my pdoc said that they would over time, planning this trip was one, I still have some that linger, not seeing the obvious, this might just be me, but when I go to places and I'm trying to touch the screen and it's not a touch screen (like what happened this morning at the library) or when I freaked out that I didn't have enough medicine, when more was just behind my elbow. That one was pretty funny. In my brain, I move slower than I used to, or at least it feels that way.

There have been medication changes I'm sure since the last post. Currently I am on 1500mg of Lithium and 2000mg of Depakote. I know that the Depakote has been added since the last post. Using Lithium and Depakote is a strong combination, and the Depakote will be increased to at least 2500 or 3000mg. Which is a normal dose for this medication as I'm told. To me, it seems like a ton of medication, but if it's making me feel better, I'm OK! I'm also on 450mg Seroquel, with 10-20 mg Ambien as needed. In the morning, 100mg Lamictal and in the morning and Synthroid 100mg.

All the medication really keeps me in line, but there are still days when I can't sleep and I have to take Ambien twice. Once usually works for me, but when I have 2 it really knocks me out. I don't have any recollection about what I did like feed the dogs, eat, take Drama out, text anyone, pack, etc and then it usually makes me sleep for most of the day, which I've discussed earlier, but experience was quite a doozy!