Sunday, September 7, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Lately, for a long time, probably about 4 years or so, I haven't felt all that great. I mean I would get up and go and do what I love, but I just wasn't feeling all that great or "feeling it". After a long four years, I believe we have finally found the medical answer. I take relatively few medications, but the effects are clear and effective. Lithium and Lamictal are the only two "bipolar" medications I take. I've tried numerous others with a variety of effects. In fact, initially, I had told my doctor that the Lamictal was not working and I did not take it for a year. Earlier this year, though, I was experiencing a depression that wasn't going away, even though I was taking the Lithium. After discussion, I decided to begin taking Lamictal, again. For Lamictal to work, you need to start at 25mg over 2 weeks to prevent any kind of rash or side effects, which means finding the effective dose can take a long time. For me, the most effective dose was 200mg. I had never been at 200mg. I feel like my old self going back about 5 years ago.
Now that I know what not feeling like myself and feeling like my old self feel like in me, I don't ever want that feeling to change!
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Thursday, May 29, 2014
Saturday, June 22, 2013
As 2010 turns into 2011, I visit my family in Las Vegas. I am extremely goal focused on making these really cute blankets. Every hour, every minute is spent on making the super cute blankets. I sleep a limited number of hours, shop for fleece material every spare moment I have, and talk about making blankets like there is no tomorrow. My family may have noticed something was up, they didn't tell me, until after I had left.
Here comes the depression, after visiting my family in Mississippi. More Celexa is the answer. We're up to the therapuetic dose. Let's try another medication... I get worse, not better. My dad is ill and I'm having to take responsibility for his health updates with kidney failure from Chicago, 4 hours away from him. I go visit about 4 times; the most I can while I'm dealing with my own issues. More antidepressants... We tried a number of medications to get this treated and gone.... Abilify, Wellbutrin, Celexa, Remeron, Ambien to help with sleep, and I had a reaction to most. I'm currently on the Celexa at 60 mg, and Remeron at 30 mg. And no more Abilify and Wellbutrin.
I'm shopping for things that I don't need! I'm talking super fast, focused on making a successful school check out library, buy airplane tickets to Philadelphia out of nowhere.... wait airplane tickets? The Thursday before my birthday I told my pdoc about my spontaneous purchase that day... He gives me a quick bipolar test questionaire verbally and diagnoses me that day, saying he had suspected bipolar in the past, but was hesitant to say anything. He says I'm bipolar 2 and immediately starts me on some bipolar medications.
Current meds: Lithium 1200mg, Seroquel 100mg as needed (which I've needed every single night), Synthroid 250mmg (down 25mmg), Vitamin D 5000 IU